My Relationship With Food
YOU MAY NOT KNOW THIS, BUT I’VE OFTEN FELT LIKE AN IMPOSTER AS A WELLNESS TEACHER HAVING SUCH A FUCKED UP RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD.
I grew up in a home that had an abundance of food. Except there was no consciousness around nutrition. This has had a trickle down & lasting effect on me to this day. Food was always a center point of any holiday, celebration or death. Both of my parents were overweight & I can hear my dad saying ‘I’ve had some of my best meals on a full stomach’. I ate a bagel almost every day of high school & watched mySelf quickly gain weight. I went off to college & ballooned up from too many nighttime munchies & completely lost control of my physical shape.
At some point, I got sick of my own shit & went to weight watchers. This was good for a while, until I plateaued & then found a personal trainer. Health + wellness began to creep into my life but I didn’t have a clue where it would take me. I spent the next couple years working on my physical form but never really got my nutrition under control.
One day, I was invited to go to Bikram Yoga. I was hesitant/scared, but said fuck it & gave it a whirl. I could barely do any postures in class, but somehow I was hooked & back the next day for more. I even bought a monthly membership. Obviously, that led me to my first teacher training, followed by many more trainings over the years. I stepped into the wellness world full steam & knew that this was my Dharma, my life’s work. But I’m still constantly at battle with mySelf over food & the consumption of it. Addicted to sugar, caffeine and gluten to name a few, I’ve often felt the side effects of ‘imposter syndrome’, like how could I be preaching the goods, but be over dosing on coffee just to have fabricated energy and an empty stomach.
When my dad passed away from a heart attack, kidney failure, type 2 diabetes and obesity, I had a major reframe about what is genetic and what was actually passed down to me. I knew that these were all learned behaviors, and all of these unfortunate diseases were, sadly Self inflicted by my dad and the habits that were taught to him. I’ve decided it’s time to break my ancestral patterns. Over the course of my 9 year teaching career, I have yet to get control of my diet and nutrition because as a yoga teacher who is always on the go, finding the balance of enough food but still having an empty stomach to teach, is something I struggle with. UNTIL NOW.
Last month, I embarked on a 30 day superfood nutritional journey that has quite literally changed my body and brain on a molecular level. This major gut reset has transformed my metabolism, given me copious amounts of energy, cleared up my skin, and graced me with restful nights of sleep. My general inflammation is gone, fatigue and brain fog has subsided and my yoga practice feels stronger than ever!
I know this resonates with so many of you. If you’re ready to take the next step in transforming your entire body and mind, then I’m here to support you. Let’s connect!
